I literally went from feeling like there was no way this baby was coming anytime soon to feeling like I could pop at any moment in the matter of a couple days. • We’re still 17 days away from my due date and I’ve had no actual signs of labor yet, but I think it’s safe to say we’re officially on baby watch!
It’s been over two years now since I saw your little heart beat. I told myself that by now things would be different and I would’ve finally made it to the day that I got to meet my child and everything would be okay, but life just isn’t as simple as that! My body started the process of growing my baby, only for that to be taken away and ended too soon, my bodies never stopped craving that baby and even as time passes I still can’t catch my breath at the thought of your head on my chest or the feeling of skin to skin that when the wind grazes me and I imagine that’s how it would’ve felt. I catch myself turning to check the back seats to make sure a little someone is strapped in properly, you would’ve been 2 now I wake up in the night thinking there’s a baby that needs feeding, my chest feels like it’s getting the love squeezed right out of it when I realise there’s no one there. My body and mind are all over the place. Please don’t let that be my only chance 🌸💫🌱🌟 #infertility #pregnancyloss #pastrelationships #painfulreality #pregnancy #baby #loss #motherhood #journeytomotherhood #whatsnext #when #abusiverelationships #wantedunwanted #wantedpregnancy
I've had quite a few people say 'But you're not that old' or 'Just wait, you'll meet someone'. 36 is not old. But it's not young either. Especially when it comes to having babies. I've got plenty of time to meet someone but I can't wait for that moment. Not only might it be too late for me to make babies then, but it means going longer living with the emptiness that has only gotten bigger as I've gotten older. I can't wait to have a little one to push that emptiness away (and to give this little cherub some cousins around her age!). #lovebeinganauntie #butcantwaittobeamum #spermdonor #donorsperm onestepcloser #babymakestwo #goingitalone #smbc #solomumbychoice #solomotherbychoice #singlemotherbychoice #singlemumbychoice #choicemum #iui #iuiprocess #fertility #fertilityjourney #perthfertility #ausfertility #journeytomotherhood #ttc #ttcjourney #ttccommunity #donorconception
Happy first birthday our sweet pea’s . How on earth did we make it here so fast!? A lot of sleepless nights, a lot of Netflix and newborn snuggles, a lot of dirty diapers and laundry and a lot of idk what we are doing but still admiring those sweet little faces . Reflecting on today has been hard. One year ago we were so incredibly scarred of the unknown. I was sore all day, thinking it was just pregnancy discomfort. Kyle had slept over at a friends house the night before because the hospital couch in the family room had been taken. He got back to The hospital at noon and I had mentioned being uncomfortable all morning. By 4pm I finally told the nurses who then put me on another none stress test. I had contractions and more signs of preterm labour. So to labour and delivery I went. The doctor that had been on call came in and told me if I have the babies tonight, it’ll be via C section. I remember being sooo hungry and got the ok from the doctor because I probably wasn’t going into labour within the hour, so I scarfed down probably 700 calories in fruit and nut mix. 15 minutes later Clark’s water broke (Islas broke 3 days prior) I went from 1-8 centimeters dialed in 5 minutes and it was go time. I was shaking and was asked to sign some documents that I had no idea what they said, Kyle was thrown scrubs and a mask and I was being pushed away on the bed. A team of 20+ doctors, an anesthetic doctor, nurses, nicu nurses surrounded me. The scariest thing I’ve ever experienced and within 25 minutes, Isla was out. Not getting to hold or look at your newborn has got to be one of the most gut wrenching things a new mother has to experience. My first words were “is she ok? Are they alive?” They both were. Our little miracles weighed in at 2lbs 1oz each. Looking back, I wish someone could be able to tell us that they were going to make it, and be healthy and strong one year olds a year later. But I guess that is what faith is. Believing in what you can’t see. Our faith is stronger because of them. The amount of prayer that went into our little babies was more then we could ever imagine. Prayer works guys. Happy 1st birthday to our precious twinnies💛
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5 M O N T H S and a couple days late (the usual at this point #momlife) and this handsome fella sure know how to keep us on our toes. We are so close to crawling, longer than your average 5 month old, pretty dang close to sitting unassisted, and we are just getting started! Let the baby proofing around the house begin! . . . #briggswilliamdean
08/18/17 - Day 32 of Life . It was incredible that just a couple weeks prior, the doctors told me that Lex was the “sicker” twin. We learned pretty quickly to never trust a preemie and, more so, to never underestimate one; or in our case two. . Our boys played leap frog during the entire NICU journey. Just as one would pull ahead in the race to discharge, the other would shock everyone and make a major developmental leap. . Lex had just had heart surgery which was the best thing for him. It proved his broken heart was really holding him back because we got word they were going to try to extubate him for the first time ever and so they did. . Lex’s breathing tube was removed and he was moved to NIV which is more invasive than CPAP, but much less than being intubated. He lasted a few hours before he had to be re-intubated. This was not a bad thing though. Even a few hours without a breathing tube was a huge step in the right direction. The neonatologist said he would try to extubate again in the upcoming weeks, but for now he got to rest. . As a reward, he got to use a pacifier for the first time. Look at how big it was for this 2 lb baby! . We couldn’t have been more proud of our warrior.
How did we go from a tear in the stomach to an emergency C section? Yesterday morning my mother in law called an ambulance due to the severe upper abdominal pains I had been experiencing for over an hour. They administered both IV ondansetron (the pain made my HG worse) and fentanyl to make the ride more comfortable. When we arrived at the hosptial I was given more pain relief and I attempted to eat food but the pain never subsided enough to satisfy the doctors so I was transferred to the maternity ward for observations. We were told the blood test results showed dehydration so I was given more fluids. The doctor on duty said we were experiencing issues with a tear in the stomach and acid reflux pains. We could go home or stay overnight to help bring the vomiting back under control. We decided it was best to stay in case the pain got worse. The next morning the obstetrician on duty went over my notes prior to releasing me, there she noticed that my liver function had rapidly declined in the past two days and my platelets were also dropping at a very serious rate. She ordered more blood tests and an hour later told me baby needed to be delivered by the end of the day to prevent complete organ failure. I was experiencing a rare condition called HELLP syndrome. A very extreme case of preeclampsia. They obstetrician determined that hyperemesis was hiding it due to the fact that malnutrition was thought to be the cause of my liver/kidney issues and was keeping my blood pressure low enough to go undetected despite having proteins in my urine for the entire pregnancy. The tear in my stomach was a misdiagnosis and the pain was actually from my liver starting to shut down. We were advised that a C section would have to happen by the end of the day. One last urgent blood test was organised and found that everything had become considerably worse in the past two hours and the plan to deliver baby changed from the end of the day to within the hour. We were very fortunate that my platelet level was still at an acceptable range to have a C section under local anesthesic, which meant both Tim and I were able to be present when she was born.
Let’s Start a Revolution where #therightbirthontheday is the only way to birth. Where birth empowerment is the norm and birth trauma is a thing of the past! #lunaandbear_positivebirthcoach #journeytomotherhood #hypnobirthingsurrey #thewisehippo #hypnobirthingsurrey #pregnancyyoga
Two years ago today I had a miscarriage. Two years ago I heard the words “There is no heartbeat.” By this time at night, I already had two doses of misoprostol in my system and was having frequent contractions. I was in so much pain and felt like I might actually bleed to death (TMI, but no one talks about this). I can’t even describe to you how much it hurt physically. We had tried for a long time for that pregnancy and had to go back to ground zero. Time has gone by, but the memories are still in my heart. Today I am forever grateful for this scrunchy faced rainbow baby selfie parter ❤️🌈 If you are going through this, DM me if you need support. Don’t be afraid to reach out. . . . . #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #canadianmommyblogger #canadianmama #rainbowmama #rainbowbaby #ourrainbowbaby #myrainbow #myrainbowbaby #pregnancyandinfantloss #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness #rainbowbabyday #miscarriage #ihadamiscarriage #journeytomotherhood #ptbocanada #ptbo #kawarthalakes #canadianblogger #miscarriagemomma #miscarriagesucks #miscarriagematters #canadianmommysnaps
My sweet little Milo. His sleepy snuggles are my favorite. So blessed. 🙏🏼❤️ . #furbaby #furmom #furmomma #furmama #futuremom #journeytomotherhood #ttcover33 #milo #dogsofig #chihuahua #chihuahuasofinstagram #dogsofinstagram #dogsofinsta #fridaynight #fridayvibes #netflixandchill #weekendvibes #thisis33
🌳 Had a really long walk with my husband today, and had a really good chance to clear my head and think....💭💭 We talked about how wonderful it will be to push a pram around these beautiful areas of Yorkshire in which we live. We talked about how they might scream all the way around and ruin the peace and quiet...but how we wouldn't mind one bit, how when they get older they will laugh, giggle and chatter all the way around and also about how we can't wait to hold their little hand and take them on adventures ♥️♥️ Our journey so far has brought us so much sadness, worry, sleepless nights and heartbreak...but today I felt so happy to be talking about our one day, miracle baby ♥️ I will never ever give up hope. Does anybody else have days like this...that physically drain them but give them little glimmers of happiness and hope through the sadness? I feel at peace today , moving towards our fertile days this month 🤞🏻🤞🏻 Wishing you all a wonderful weekend ahead, filled with love and baby dust ✨✨ Love, N xx #ttc #ttcuk #ttccommunity #ttccouple #ttchusbandandwife #ttcfamily #ttcsupport #ttclife #ttcroad #ttcwarriors #ttcwarrior #ttcjourney #tryingtoconceive #tryingtoconceiveuk #tryingtoconceivecommunity #tryingtogetpregnant #tryingforababy #positivethoughts #mentalhealth #ttcstruggles #mentalhealthsupport #hopingforababy #hopingforamiracle #journeytomotherhood #journeytopregnancy #journeytoparenthood
I just want to thank my guests from July and August for sharing their stories of bravery, endurance, faith and triumph! It was a pleasure and the best is yet to come for all of you! My talented cousin @scjmood, who has new music out! Check him out on YouTube at Justin Mood These brave and fierce ladies @gerialicea of @wombprep and @shan.ketchum of @embracebravery. Please make sure to purchase their books and merchandise! #music #goodmood #jmood #justinmood #mrmood #wombprep #embracebravery #pregnancy #infertility #journeytomotherhood #motherhood #baby #babies
I’m so i n l o v e with y o u 💕 • • • • • #motherhood #motherhoodthroughinstagram #motherhoodmoments #motherhoodthroughig #motherhoodrising #journeytomotherhood #momboss #momlife #momlifeisthebestlife #momblog #mombloggers #mommylove #mommyandmefashion #momsofgirls #momsofinstagram #mommyblog #mommybloggers #babiesofinstagram #igbabies #igbabymodel #babygirl #babycurls #babycurlsfordays #crawlingbaby #fivemonthsold
08/17/17 - Day 31 of Life . Lex continued to gain respiratory strength and was completely on breast milk. His PDA ligation couldn’t have gone better. He was past the recovery phase of surgery and his respiratory requirements were improving daily. The surgery was so worth it! He looked so restful and cozy, just like a newborn should look. . Lochlan was two days post surgery. The shunt was working as it was suppose to; excess fluid was being pulled from his brain to accumulate in a pocket under his scalp that was created by the surgeon. He started feeds again, was off morphine and was stable on the respiratory front. . He was still on antibiotics as a preventative measure, but had some alarming symptoms. He had a couple bloody stools, spit up bile and his CO levels drastically increased. The doctors ordered x-rays and fortunately they did not see anything alarming. Urine and blood samples were taken to see if he did, in fact, have an infection. . Infection was probably the biggest threat for our 24 weekers. They had no immune system, were fighting so hard to just live and any additional challenge could have been devastating to their health. Again, we waited…
Do you know what? It’s nothing fancy. But there’s something kind of magical about creating your babies first ever bedroom🌟 . Cot = @stokkebaby (eBay - £200) ✔️Mobile = @ikeauk (£5?)✔️ Chair = @ikeauk (£35) ✔️ Animal Prints = @roseendcreations (£14) ✔️ Changing Dresser = @mamasandpapas (Facebook market place £170) ✔️ Grey Storage Boxes = @tkmaxxuk (£12.99) ✔️ Grey blanket = @johnlewisandpartners (£30) ✔️ Very Hungry Caterpillar Outfit = HANDMADE by my sisters friend 😍 . More spam in stories ⬆️ . . . . . #nurserydecor #nursery #nurseryreveal #babybedroom #babyboy #32weekspregnant #pregnancy #pregnant #firstborn #firstbaby #firsttimemum #journeytomotherhood #thecountdownison #youaremysunshine #imstartingtogetexcited #tinyspacesolutions #smallkidsroom
Don’t let mental blocks control you. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ You've decided to move forward + now you need to commit to that decision.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Turn your mental blocks into building blocks.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Sounds so simple really doesn't it but oftentimes our brain trips us up on the unknown. Wanting to stay in the comfort of what we know excluding all those things that may be scary + bring on fear + self-doubt.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Which makes sense.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Our brains, awesome, amazing + complex things though they are will often keep us where we are, not only stopping us from moving forward but preventing us from inciting our flight or fight instincts to keep us safe.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ But living isn't safe + we need to accept that + do small things that we fear to get us out of our comfort zones so we can move forward.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ If you've decided to start a business, then maybe it's just telling people about it, maybe showing your face on stories or jumping on a live + talking about what you want to do.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Whatever it is you want to do that you feel is scary + your brain is keeping you stuck with, write down 3 things that you could do that can help you move forward.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I rooting for you + I know once you overcome this you'll shine your brightest.
The newest additions to Baby Peake’s bedroom are these gorgeous prints I picked up from The Whitby Gallery earlier in the week, I can’t get enough of them 🧡 - I’ve been in a bit of a funk this past week, and I really don’t know what’s causing it. I don’t know if it’s that when September comes we are going to be knees deep in the adoption with profiling events and adoption play days both before our panel? Whether it is me feeling super unprepared because the room isn’t 100% finished, we haven’t even started looking at prams and car seats? I don’t know what it is. Please tell me I’m not the only one? . . . . . . . . . . . #ukadoptioncommunity #adoptionnesting #whitbygalleries #babyanimals #adoption #adoptionjourney #adoptionstory #journeytomotherhood #motherhoodrising #unpluggedmotherhood #motherhoodthroughinstagram #firsttimemum #mum
“There is no dignity in #childbirth”, a client of mine recently commented while preparing for a #VBAC. -My Body, my choice. -Metoo -Decades of fighting for women’s rights, equal pay, feminism… Yet, somehow, body autonomy all goes out the window as soon as even the most vocal feminists enter the birth room. Why is that? - We hear story after story of women enduring forced cervical exams, not feeling like they have a choice in how they are cared for, screaming to be heard as they are wheeled back into the O.R. for a C-section, being restricted in their movement or choice of birth positions, not being given the option for VBAC due to VBAC bans or unsupportive staff, and parents being guilted or shamed into making spontaneous decisions by an aggressive or overworked provider. - Here is what I want you to know: YOU have a right to decide what happens to YOUR body, even when you are giving birth. YOU can say no to: -Cervical checks -Induction of labor -Scheduled induction -Scheduled C-section Or anything else that makes you feel uncomfortable, restrained, or not in control. Listen to your mama heart, if it's throwing red flags, stop & pay attention. - Let me say it again. YOU STILL HAVE RIGHTS TO YOUR OWN BODY EVEN WHILE YOU ARE HAVING A BABY! - The only way to change how women are treated is to demand that we are treated better. Learn your options, endlessly educate yourself so that your common sense and intuition can kick in even when you are in labor. If your provider or any other person overseeing your care does not explain things to you or ASK for your permission before caring for you and/or touching you, you have the right to seek new care. Anytime. Even in the middle of labor. - Guess what? We have invited Dr. Stu (@birthinginstincts) & Midwife Blyss (@birthingngblyssmidwifery) with Dr. Stus Podcast back on The VBAC Link podcast and on Monday Sept 2nd, we are spending an hour talking with them all about body autonomy, why women give up their choices in the birth space, and how you can change that, even if you do not feel like you have any other options. Be sure to subscribe on apple podcasts or, wherever you find your podcasts, to be notified when it goes live
My rainbow baby. . . . It’s not often that I go back and re-trace my steps through all we had to go through to get her here but... . I think it’s important to. . Those years in between our two girls were the hardest years I’ve ever had to walk through. Losing a baby at 6 weeks, 10 weeks, a chemical pregnancy and then another early loss took me to places I never wanted to be. . I wondered what was wrong with me and what missing supplement I wasn’t taking and why my body just wouldn’t cooperate. . I sat in my OB’s office and heard moms-to-be through the wall at their monthly checkups and died a little on the inside. . I wanted to give up but at the same time, I couldn’t. . I think there’s a reason our hearts won’t let us give up on some things. . My entire pregnancy with Krosby was filled with fear and flashbacks and hope and confirmation and then this sweet little chub landed in my arms after I fought through a drug-free labor - determined to endure the physical pain that I was sure would be nothing - next to what I’d already gone through. . And all of it was worth it.💞 . If you’re waiting for your #rainbowbaby don’t give up. . If you’re not sure you can keep going, you can. . And if you ever wonder if God has a plan, He does. . #rainbowbabyday #myrainbowbaby
🌈In honor on National Rainbow Baby day I wanted to share a throwback of my rainbows. To all of you that have been through or are currently dealing with infertility, miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss I am thinking of you. Many don’t like to talk about it but know you are never alone and never give up hope. Head over to my stories to see an updated post about my struggle with infertility and infant loss and my journey to getting my rainbows 🌈
My feed today has been filled with #nationalrainbowbabyday posts and while yes it's sad that so many of us had to experience this heartache on our journeys to motherhood, it's also pretty amazing that none of us lost hope and were ultimately blessed with these little miracles called #rainbowbabies🌈 Still in disbelief that our 2nd rainbow will hopefully be here in 10 short weeks!! ❤️🤞
Did you know 50% of foster homes close within the 1st year of becoming licensed? Mostly because of lack of support. • I hear from a lot of foster parents who say it’s lonely, overwhelming, and isolating because many people don’t understand childhood trauma. Some don’t have family close by. And if they do, I often hear grandparents are only willing to watch the bio kids. ☹️ • The truth is these parents need a break even if it’s not an emergency situation. The daily emotional stress is understated. They need to take a date night, exercise alone, or attend doctor appointments. Lots of which isn’t feasible with several behavioral/medically needy children. • I recently heard of a foster mom who came home to a babysitter in tears because the medical foster baby had been non-stop crying. The newborn is constantly in pain because of cerebral palsy muscle spasms. • We need babysitters who are background checked & trained in childhood trauma! We even need some with medical backgrounds. We need babysitters who are willing and able to take on several children at once to accommodate the whole family. This way the parents don’t have to drive dropping kids off at multiple locations just to get a few hours to themselves. • But I don’t know everything. I’m sure I’m missing something. Moms what is the one thing you wish your babysitter knew about you or your kids?